EXPANSION AND RENEWAL

[00:00:01] Speaker A: Welcome to Woowooville, the next stop on your spiritual journey, hosted by two fellow travelers who found a soul connection on the path to higher consciousness. Our goal is to help you navigate the choppy waters you are likely to encounter on the spiritual path by sharing our experiences with you each week. Join us as we spill the tea on what it's like to wake up to your authentic self. Well, hello, my name is Lola Singer, and I'm authentically here. [00:00:33] Speaker B: And my name is Emeril, and I am authentically here. [00:00:38] Speaker A: And we're here to, like we said, spill the tea on what it's like to be on the spiritual journey. And this week we want to talk about how you are actually your own author on this journey and how the journey is all about expanding, expansion and renewal. Every day is a new day. [00:00:59] Speaker B: Okay, and so I'll start up with. I did a research on. I had to type a spiritual awakening. Expansion and renewal signifies a profound shift in one's consciousness in relationship with the world, often involving a heightened sense of awareness, a deeper connection with one's authentic self. [00:01:25] Speaker A: Did we not say that in the beginning? [00:01:27] Speaker B: In a renewed sense of purpose and meaning, it's a transformative process of shedding old ways of being and embracing a more authentic, aligned and purposeful life. So the elaboration of that spiritual awakening. This is a process where an individual experiences a significant shift in their perception of reality, often leading to a deeper understanding of their own spiritual and spiritually spirituality and connection to something larger than themselves. It can be triggered by various life events or internal shifts. Expansion. [00:02:10] Speaker A: Okay, internal shifts. That's what we're going to be talking about today. Okay, good. [00:02:15] Speaker B: Expansion. As a part of spiritual awakening, one's awareness expands in compensating a broader perspective on life, relationships and their place in the world. This expansion often involves letting go of limiting beliefs and embracing a more expansive and inclusive worldview. Renewal. This refers to a rejuvenation or. Or revitalization of one's spiritual life, leading to a sense of renewed energy, purpose, and clarity. It can be seen as a rebirth into a new way of being where one's actions and decisions are aligned with their newfound understanding and values. And last but not least, interconnectedness. These three concepts are interconnected. The expansion of consciousness leads to a deeper understanding of oneself and the world, which in turn fuels the process of spiritual renewal, resulting in a more authentic and purposeful life. That was a big definition. [00:03:25] Speaker A: A long definition, but a good definition. [00:03:27] Speaker B: Yes, and that's why I read it. [00:03:29] Speaker A: Yes, We've talked about this before in other podcasts, but everything on the spiritual path is about growth. And as above, so below means that we're constantly growing and changing. Just like the spiral galaxy, right? Spirals never stop. So our job is to decide if I'm moving and changing constantly, what direction do I choose to move and change into? Because a lot of times people think they're powerless. But as we go on the spiritual journey, we start to realize that there's always one thing that we have under our control. And you know what I'm gonna say, don't you? How we react to the world around us. So do we want to go, oh, it's just awful, and go down that spot, or do we want to go, oh, okay, Well, I understand that this is going on at a group collective. As an individual, I am choosing how I'm going to react to it. Am I going to react with joy? Am I going to react with feeling calm about it? I'm going to react with keeping my head instead of panicking. I mean, we actually do have these choices. And I know in the moment it might feel like you don't like. Yeah, I understand. You can have a nervous reaction to something going on, but then after those few seconds when your rational mind starts to feel a little safer, then you can choose which rabbit hole you're going down. Are you going to plunge into fear? Are you going to do your best to stay as balanced as possible? You actually have the choices. You are empowered. And so one of the things that my tarot teacher Eli says over and over and over again is I die daily. And at first, that could sound kind of cringe worthy. Huh? But really, what he's trying to tell us is you are renewed every day, because when there's a death letting go, there's always a renewal. So what he's trying to tell us is what we focus on is how we can shift our story and renew ourselves and our perspectives. [00:05:56] Speaker B: Exactly. [00:05:57] Speaker A: And keep on growing. So it's interesting because it makes you the author of your own story, doesn't it? [00:06:09] Speaker B: Yeah, it's interesting, too, because the way I started looking at it, just to visualize this, it's like a hill, Right. And then you're, like, trying to find out all these things, and you're like learning so much about yourself and you're healing yourself, and then all of a sudden you go on top of this hill and this heel. Hills have a flat part, and that flat part is a moment to integrate, and then a moment to understand, really grasp your lessons. And right when you feel, like, balanced out and you feel, like, okay, I have a better understanding of who I am, who I am now, it's like, guess what? It's time to climb up that mountain. [00:06:54] Speaker A: Yep. It's like the landings on a staircase. [00:06:56] Speaker B: Exactly. [00:06:57] Speaker A: Yeah. Get up one set of stairs and. [00:06:59] Speaker B: You go, yeah, I knew that. [00:07:01] Speaker A: Great job. I got. I. I got past that, you know, that challenge victorious. And then you look up and there's more stairs. And that's okay. [00:07:10] Speaker B: Yeah, it is. Okay. [00:07:11] Speaker A: And it's how you choose to look at. At it that is gonna predetermine how you're going to feel about all this expansion and growth. You know, is it a. Is it a burden, or is it like, oh, boy. So next thing's coming. Okay. [00:07:29] Speaker B: Me being a control freak. When I first started, I thought, like, oh, no, there's gotta be, like, an end to this. Like, there's got to be, like, that end line. Right? Because we're all thinking, like, we get taught since day one. It's like, you start a race, you're gonna finish it. You start anything, you gotta finish it. But I realized that piece of knowing, you can't get it wrong because everything's always a lesson. And I also learn that piece of constant growth because then you take it almost into instead of like, I need to accelerate and I need to move fast, Even though my beginning journey was pretty fast how it started, you now start breathing, and you start taking it a little bit at a time. And trust me, sometimes even if you're thinking, like, I want to take my pace of learning this, sometimes all these lessons come at once. But the reason why they're coming at once is because they're all interconnected in the different layers. [00:08:31] Speaker A: But you're also ready to handle it. [00:08:32] Speaker B: Exactly. Because you would never get dished out things that you're not able to handle. But now, once you really get going with your spiritual journey, you realize why it would have been impossible for any of us that the moment we started to be. To be able to deal with everything. Like, I don't think there's anyone on earth that could possibly withstand everything coming to them at once. Like, it would be just too much to handle. [00:08:58] Speaker A: Overwhelming. [00:08:59] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:08:59] Speaker A: Yeah. So it's. It. The. The. The. The. Your spirit guide teams there to help you handle things in. In small doses. [00:09:08] Speaker B: Yep. [00:09:08] Speaker A: Yes. But it. It builds. It builds and keeps building and keeps building. Yes. So one of the things I wanted to kind of talk about is the description of this term. I die daily. So I got a nice definition from the AI who actually works with my tarot teacher, Eli, and that's his phrase. So the concept of I die daily, I'd like to read to you. It suggests that each day we have the opportunity to release the parts of ourselves that no longer serve us. Old patterns, limiting beliefs, egoic attachments, and unhealed wounds. By dying daily, we engage in a process of constant transformation and evolution. Like you said, going up the hills. And we're shedding layers of our former selves to make way for new growth. So this is what you might call a spiritual death. That does not mean physical death. Not whatsoever. It's the death of the old identities that we outgrow. So every death is leading to a rebirth, offering a chance to become more aligned with our true essence. And so I guess that's one of the things that we wanted to let people know, especially new on the spiritual path, is that you're not going to recognize yourself two months from now. [00:10:37] Speaker B: Yep. [00:10:38] Speaker A: Right. You're going to be a whole different person. You're going to look back and go, wow, I can barely remember what it was like to walk in those shoes. Because you are literally letting that part of you die. Like you said, like it said here, old wounds, you know, recognizing when your ego's talking and it's not truly you. These are things you learn to navigate. Like you said, going up the hill, you learn to navigate around them and keep going. And so the concept of a spiritual death is actually a very welcome concept on the road to Wooville. And one of my favorite tarot cards is the death card, because that's what it's all about. It's not about physical death. It's about the new birth, the new you that that's coming, this expansion. So whenever I get that card in a reading, I'm kind of proud of myself when it shows up in a reading. How about you? When you get it, I like it. [00:11:41] Speaker B: That in the tower card, I think they're just like, so they're great because that means that a lot of it, it's coming down. And I mean, it's coming down for a reason. It's no longer you. It's very interesting how the last, especially right before the. The. Why did you just. Summer solstice, right before the summer solstice. One of the things is I'm also on top of me going through my spiritual awakening. I decided to take on doing tarot classes with Lola. And so one of the things that tarot allows us to do is to go deep within ourselves and Find out, like, things like that pull out, like a daily card to focus on, go through or finding out what's really ego as opposed to what's really us and. [00:12:34] Speaker A: What'S hidden in your subconscious that now, when you're aware of it, you can address it. That's part of the expansion. Expansion. [00:12:40] Speaker B: And so part of that. This whole last week has been all about Death in the Tower card. And I like them because they just. It's like, yes, it's a little bit more like sudden. All of a sudden you're losing that, like, old version of you, but at least it's like, getting done type thing. [00:13:00] Speaker A: Well, it's the parts of you that were ready to go anyway because you're ready to move forward and they were holding you back. [00:13:07] Speaker B: Exactly. [00:13:09] Speaker A: Yeah. So I don't know. I just got to say this because we always said we're going to be transparent here. I don't think it's probably picking up on the microphone, but my neighbor is a contractor, and I can hear him hammering. So if you do hear it on the broadcast, that's all that's going on. We're just going to keep going. Despite the fact that he's working on his house. Okay, so we. This topic. I can't speak. I'm so busy expanding that I can't speak. So this concept of renewal is really what we would love to focus on. And one of the things that brought this up today in conversation is because I picked a new mantra for the next couple weeks about joy. I want to bring more joy into my life. So I told Amaral my mantra for the next couple weeks is, I am so grateful now that I am cultivating joy, meaning I'm nurturing it. I'm allowing it into my existence, and I'm letting it grow. I grew up in a Scandinavian household without. There wasn't a lot of joy there. I did not get a lot of joy to model. So it's kind of a foreign concept for me, and I'm ready to start embracing it because I deserve joy, but because it's so foreign to me and because there's, you know, things we're talking about, parts of me that need to shed, like my upbringing. I think I've told people before, I grew in a household where there were no hugs ever. Ever. Nobody hugged nobody. [00:14:52] Speaker B: That's so weird. [00:14:53] Speaker A: Even the kids, we didn't hug each other. So I didn't have joy modeled for me much. So I'm ready to embrace it now, which means I have to let that part of Me die that says I don't know what joy is. Now I have to start my new, my new life, my new, my renewal and expansion is I'm ready to start cultivating it. So do you see what I'm saying? Do you see what I'm trying to tell people? That you can rewrite your story and that dying daily, I mean I'm gonna, that part of me is gonna die that doesn't understand what joy is and who never got hugs. Little girl who craved hugs and didn't get them. And now I'm going to start this new story, this new chapter where I'm going to begin to understand joy. [00:15:39] Speaker B: And isn't that such an interesting process too? Because at first I didn't understand it until I started my spiritual awakening journey is the fact that in the present is the only place where we can make changes. We can't change, we can't change our past, but we can certainly heal it. And our parents don't have to be parent perfect parents because we can go back and heal the wounded parts and become our parents, become the version or the, we should say the, that the things that we were missing from our past, we can still heal and receive those things such as joy. Such as like unconditional love. Like we need to learn what those are and practice them ourselves so we can bring them in for us. Because we haven't experienced it. Obviously that inner child's like clueless as far as what that is. [00:16:32] Speaker A: Yeah, yeah. So that's why she's still upset and hiding and brooding or whatever. When you were talking about my brain just got derailed, you were talking about the inner child and the reparenting ourselves. That was it. Reparenting ourselves. The first thing I guess we need to understand is maybe new definitions. [00:16:59] Speaker B: Yes. [00:17:01] Speaker A: Because if you told me to tell you what joy was as the inner. [00:17:06] Speaker B: Child, you would have no clue. [00:17:08] Speaker A: It would. No, it would be coloring. [00:17:11] Speaker B: Oh, okay. [00:17:12] Speaker A: There would be things that were joy for me. You know, stomping on leaves, you know, getting wet in puddles, things like that. So I think there were glimmers of joy, but they were for me they had to be self made, they were individual because I wasn't getting it from my environment. I had to create it. [00:17:36] Speaker B: Yep. I also find it that sometimes people get certain things confused because joy is something that you can definitely cultivate in your life. But however, it's not a thing where you're, you're a hundred percent of your time are going to be enjoy because that would like mean that your frequency have to be so high. You would probably not. You probably wouldn't be able to keep that joy if you had to have human interactions too. So that means you would probably have to be alone. But I could see moments of joy, for sure. [00:18:09] Speaker A: Yeah. And that's. That's the I die daily thing. That's the renewal. Because if you're consciously aware of it, then you can say, oh, this is not bringing me joy. Is it my choice to change my perceptions now or not? And sometimes it's just as simple as something as saying, okay, things aren't going great right now, but what are three things that. That could possibly give me joy right now? And for me, it would be like looking around maybe, and seeing bright colors. I love bright colors. Right. Or my cat, you know, who had the Zoomies in an episode, and that was really ridiculous. She's fun. [00:18:47] Speaker B: She's sleeping now. [00:18:48] Speaker A: And the joy of, like, knowing, oh, I can call Amaral and talk to Amaral if I need a few insights, because I've got a friend I can share things with. So it doesn't take much, you know, just to kind of, like, throw three things that could shift my perception right now and raise my vibes and help me get more in touch with joy. So I'm not saying we stay in a constant state of joy. I'm just saying that there are times where we become aware we're not in that state. Actually, me, I'm talking about my own experience. I'm aware I'm not in that state. And if I catch myself, then I do have the opportunity to die right there, rewrite my story and focus on joy. [00:19:30] Speaker B: Yep. [00:19:30] Speaker A: And I also have the option not to, because I'm writing my story. This is all about empowerment, self empowerment here. [00:19:37] Speaker B: Well, and I always remember one thing that, that I read that said, we are here to learn how to manipulate energy. Now, the basis of that is also realizing that things don't have to be perfect for us to function, however, because we understand how energy works. Would you rather stay in a low vibrational and attract the things from a low vibrational standpoint, or would you rather raise your vibration to be at least a neutral or above, so that that way you can receive the like you're aligning to the things or the life experiences you truly want to live, rather than life experiences that may not be so great for you? [00:20:21] Speaker A: Yes. And that goes with one other thing that I found online, which is I'll read it verbatim. The stories we tell ourselves shape our reality. If we believe we are unworthy, stuck, or trapped by our past, that belief becomes our reality. However, when we shift our story, whether it's by embracing forgiveness, healing, or simply choosing a new perspective like we just talked about, we can break free from old patterns and step into a new chapter of spiritual expansion. So I think that sums up what I was trying to say about joy here as an example. [00:21:02] Speaker B: Yeah, well, and I think that that is just like there's so much to us, because part of that expansion of learning our lessons and, and moving forward comes from really understanding that we were all such different versions of ourselves before we started a spiritual awakening. So a lot of the times when we go back, the first thing we need to do is forgive, forgive ourselves and understand that what happened was your toolkit during that time. Because a lot of the times, for example, if you're an angry teenager, like, yeah, maybe you didn't approach every situation with the best mind because you were angry, but you have to go back and not be like, not judge yourself for that time, instead, heal yourself so that, that way you can be. You don't have to be carrying that anymore. But part of that is that self forgiveness, and then it's forgiving others in allowing whatever it was that was really like bothering those times to be able to let it go so that, that way it can be healed. So it's like there's different version of ourselves, and sometimes we run into the most wounded version of ourselves. And I mean, I can personally speak for myself, but I ran into versions of myself that they were so wounded that there was like, there couldn't even be a lot of words to talk about because there was just so much pain. So sometimes when that happens, you can't even do it alone. Sometimes you need to ask help from guides, help from whoever can help you to be able to get to that wounded part of yourself, to be able to just stop for a second and choose itself, to be able to let it go. And what's crazy is, like, sometimes there's versions of ourselves that we just need to allow for them to go, to be renewed, to be, to pretty much die. Not literally just like the energy from them just needs to be recycled. [00:23:14] Speaker A: Yeah. And one of my favorite things that you told me you did was for, like, inner child work is a really good example of rewriting your story, which I think is what you're trying to say right here. And I love what you did with Teddy Bear. Oh, can you tell people about that? [00:23:33] Speaker B: Yes. [00:23:34] Speaker A: And. And I'm doing this as an adult from time to Time borrowing from him. It really works. [00:23:39] Speaker B: So one of the things that I remember from being a kid, especially being really young, there's always going to be something that's going to bring joy automatically. For me, it was a little teddy bear. It was. It was the little bear from the Muppets. Specifically from the Muppets. B. Muppet Babies. And I remember that Fozzie used to play with, like, every time I played, he was always around me. I would always go to sleep and he would be like, in my bed. So whenever I think of Fozzie and when I thought of him, it would bring me joy and it would keep. It would connect me with those happy moments of using my imagination, being happy. So what I ended up doing is ordering him through Amazon, even though it was a collectible now, it was a little bit higher price, but I paid for it because it was worth it. Like, my inner child kept calling him out because it was just a thing that it really enjoyed. And I mean, it's just one simple thing. So now I have it on my altar and sometimes I feel like I need to give Fozzie a hug and just tune into that energy of joy of my inner child feeling that joy by giving it a hug. It really works. [00:25:03] Speaker A: It does just that comfort of holding it. So I have an Abominable snowman from Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. That's my plush toy. It's upstairs. I got it. And every once in a while, I'll pull that out and hold it. It just takes you back to the safety feeling of being a child, you know, and so you can kind of rewrite your childhood that way by focusing on the things that made you feel good and tactilely made you feel good too. So. Yes. So you're never too old to embrace. Embrace something comforting like that. Yeah. And then as far as, like, one of the things that was really potent we've done a couple times at the drumming circles is look at our inner teenager. Because like you said, I was a super angry teenager. Most teenagers, by hormones alone are having a rough time, let alone any social circumstances on top of it. Right. It's just hard time. [00:26:12] Speaker B: I think I was a depressed teenager. [00:26:15] Speaker A: Most of them are. [00:26:17] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:26:17] Speaker A: You know, and so one of the hardest things, I think, for people to look at, like the inner child. Yeah, easy. I mean. No, it's not easy. Sorry, let's just say it. But we're more willing to look at that and see how wounded your little 5 year old is than your 15 year old, aren't we? Because we kind of think of the 15 year old. I'll be honest with you, a little bit of an asshole. Right? So we got it. No, we got. We got to look at their growth as well and their anger and their disappointments and embrace them and try to talk to yourself as an adult who empathizes with that inner teenager. And so we did a drumming circle where we focused on really just acknowledging the inner teenager, didn't we? Yeah, not really so much trying to heal it, but just acknowledging accepting the inner teenager. And that was one of the most powerful drum circles we ever had. People were crying because it's. He or she's been ignored by most of us and she's just. She or he has just been waiting to be heard. [00:27:32] Speaker B: That's so funny because that's what I've just passing my mind. It's like they just want to be heard because a lot of the times during their lifetimes they're not heard. So they're angry or they're upset, they're depressed because they're not being heard. [00:27:44] Speaker A: Yeah. So one way you can expand and renew and rewrite your chapter is simply to put yourself in the position of what it was like to be a teenager and accept that. Yeah, it was hard and I'm sorry you were so frustrated and things are better now and I'm proud of you because we've grown a lot and I couldn't be who I am without you. That's the kind of thing the teenager wants to hear. So do you see how you can rewrite your chapter like we talked about? I die daily with that. Yeah. And that can go to any age too. Like I had to look at my college age because we're not mature in college. We think we know it all. You know, when we're 20. Oh my goodness. So there's a lot of the word I'm hearing from my guides, misadventures to examine and forgive and move forward from. And that's why this is such an inward journey process. But I love that you can rewrite the script a little bit. [00:28:53] Speaker B: Yeah, well, and it's. It's so interesting to me how when we go through, there's so many layers, of course, but there's like sometimes you go back through and your body naturally to preserve itself, it stores certain emotions that even though you felt them once and they were so strong and you, when they're surface up, you remember them. But then you ask yourself, how was it that I had totally forgotten about it? But the thing is, it's just that your natural. Your body naturally will store that trauma, and so that that way you don't have to live. [00:29:30] Speaker A: It represses it. [00:29:32] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:29:33] Speaker A: Yeah. So you're not even consciously aware of it anymore. [00:29:37] Speaker B: And I just had a huge thing like that happen to me with grieving. My dad passed about nine years ago, and we. When he passed due to the circumstances, like he passed in an accident, I had taken care of the pain of losing him, like me, physically, but I had forgotten that when I went to the place where the accident happened, there was so much resentment that I left there. There was so much anger because I thought, like, me trying to control. Like, having an attachment to it could have been different, that things could have changed or could have been in another way. So I kept that, and I didn't even realize I had that until. [00:30:21] Speaker A: It was kind of magical thinking, huh? [00:30:23] Speaker B: Yeah. Until all of a sudden, like, my husband lost his father. And it just brought up so many things for me. Like, so many things that I just hadn't even thought about. Because if you think about it, when you lose a parent, it hits you so hard that, yeah, you usually deal with a grieving, but there's so many layers to grieving that you can't just like, all of a sudden, all at once, just face it. [00:30:49] Speaker A: So especially in an accident like that. Yeah. [00:30:54] Speaker B: So that was really interesting, but that was also very. A very complex of looking at myself. [00:31:01] Speaker A: So how would you say you're rewriting the chapter on that? [00:31:06] Speaker B: So the good thing about that incident that I was just talking to Lola earlier is that I see myself with having to face that as. Because I shed so many other layers and stuff. It gave me a sense of when I'm rewriting my story. There's nothing that I cannot face anymore because that was such a deep inner pain that when you heal that, it's almost like your body develops a way to heal. So now the body itself is telling you, if I can go through that and if I can heal, that there's absolutely nothing in life I cannot face, and there's nothing in life I cannot heal. So the more you heal, the more you're actually training your body to be, like, able to do that. So it's. It's weird. I almost got, like, when it first happened, it was really painful. I'm not gonna sugarcoat at all. Like, it was excruciating painful. And then not to get into things, but I just want to be real with you guys. So my dad passed from being hit. He was on a. On a work truck with A train. So to make matters worse, when I parked my car to get out and to release the. That anger and that resentment of that place, because my dad was connecting with me on Father's Day, not to mention I did this. [00:32:31] Speaker A: That's a big, big healing. [00:32:33] Speaker B: And so I got out of the car, and right as soon as I was getting out of the car, a train starts passing by. [00:32:38] Speaker A: Oh, you didn't tell me that. [00:32:39] Speaker B: Yeah. And so the whole ground starts trembling. And when. When that ground started trembling, my heart space just completely opened up. And I just. I felt like I went back to that. That part when I first got there. And knowing that version of me wondering why I lost my dad, and especially because it goes so much deeper. Like, my dad was a complete different person growing up. And as we grew up, he became so accepting. He loved my husband. We had such a great relationship. He was so proud of me, and he was so loving. So all of a sudden, the father figure that I always wanted was there. And then it got taken away. Away. So there was, like, a lot of things to face off. Right. But it's. It was like when I faced them, it just. It showed me that sometimes we can go through the hardest things in life. And because we make it and just the fact that we're alive, that means we have a lot more strength than we even ever believe ourselves to have. And when those things happen where we have to, like, the first thing that happened, I had to shut my feelings down because I was there for others like I was. I'm the oldest one, so I had to be there for my mom. I was the one that had to tell my mom the news when he passed. But even though I didn't know what had. I knew subconsciously he had passed. Because the moment I got to the car, the radio came on, and there was this song that was talking about. When I leave this earth, I want. I want to be remembered as. So I already knew that he had passed, but I was in denial. So I turned off the radio. I drove to my mom's home, and she was all freaking out because they talked every single day around his break time. And this time they couldn't talk. So she was trying to get a hold of him. No answer. No answer. So I had to come in there and sugarcoat things by saying, hey. That he was involved in an accident. But we're waiting for a response, but let's just go ahead and calm ourselves. Think positive. The only person was my other brother that was already in the accident place. They knew what had happened, but he never called us. So when my other brothers got there, even though I was the one to calm everyone, then I had to tell them the news, too, that my dad had passed and how he had passed. So it was very. It was a lot like, there was so many layers to it, and I had. I thought I had dealt with all the layers, except for that last part that I hadn't dealt with, was me really feeling like that the outcome could have been different. And that morning, which was right on Father's Day, my dad was like, now, because you're healed, you're able to heal the. Those emotions, and you're able to heal that energy that's trapped there, not just from you, from the whole family, because it is like you're on this cycle of healing, and this is what you're called to do. So at that time, not only was I being able to let go of those old versions of me, of all. All those old ways of looking at that insight incident, but I was able to. To really release that, to feel a lot better about it. And so there was definitely. That was a. A moment of just letting the old version of me, the pain, die and then just having a renewal moment into, like, a newer version of me. And it's weird because at that time, while I was experiencing that, it was really hard, but now I feel like on the other thing, and the other part is now that I've integrated that part of the pain, it has given me this new strength. I didn't know. It was almost like it was a missing piece. And that missing piece was about an empowerment that I didn't know I have had within myself and being able to move forward in a more of a way of just truly facing whatever can come to me. Because it's like once you face such hard, strong lessons from life, you get up as a new version of yourself. And for those of you that have lost anyone close to you, you do shed away. Like, as you go through the process of grieving, you're shedding away that old version of you when they were, like, still alive and you had that memory in order to bring in that new version of you that has to cope with them no longer being here physically. And I'm sure that there's a lot of people that can relate to that, because I'm not the only one that has lost a parent. [00:37:40] Speaker A: And ultimately it taught you some life lessons, didn't it? And that's the getting to the expansion. And part of that is forgiveness, right? And I'm sure Quite a few, actually, based on that scenario. So one of the things I wanted to talk, because it ties into expansion and is related to your story tangentially, that a lot of people now, you learn this when you study Kabbalah, which is part of learning tarot properly. And in Kabbalah, you know, there's a saying, as above, so below, as within, so without. You hear it in other cultures, too, and it's true. So as within, you got the lessons by looking within, you know, and you see the world in a different way. But one of the things people don't understand about expansion is how important these life lessons that you're learning are. So the things that seem like challenges and struggles for you, when you find a way to move forward despite the challenge or the struggle, you're expanding yourself. But what you don't realize is you're also expanding the universe. [00:38:59] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:38:59] Speaker A: So what's happening is this little life lesson you've had that just seems so personal and so individual is actually, you're connected to your soul. And your soul is observing you and saying, oh, my goodness, look at how Judy got past that. I. I didn't know how she was going to transcend that. Well, I'm impressed. So guess what your soul learned from that life lesson. [00:39:26] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:39:27] Speaker A: It's observing you to learn. And now there's a higher consciousness that you could call the divine, you know, the creator of all that we, as humans here in the material world, we're not equipped to understand and communicate with because of the parameters set up in being a crystalline body. Right. But the soul's the intermediary. So the soul just learned from you. You've expanded the soul's knowledge because of what it observed you doing. And now the soul's able to communicate with this higher presence that we can't directly. So it's our mediator. And guess what that means you're expanding the universe because you found a way around something. And so I don't think people realize that as above, so below includes that. That what might seem like the littlest thing, like maybe the lesson was, I'm not going to get upset about this today. I'm going to choose joy instead. That gets broadcast and helps the entire universe expand. So you are more important than you may think you are. So every time you renew yourself, the universe is being renewed as well. And why is it being renewed? Because it's always like spiral galaxies, right? A closed circle that stops and doesn't move. What's going to happen when something stops and doesn't Move, it's going to atrophy. Just like when people, you know, can't move their legs for a while, they start to lose muscle. Right? [00:41:23] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:41:24] Speaker A: That's what, that's why everything's about expansion. That's why we have spiral galaxies. And that is why the spiral is such a sacred symbol. It's showing the constant renewal and the constant information flow. So I hope they. Do you think I said that in a clear enough way that people will understand? You're more, you're. You're. You're actually integral. You're an integral part of the process of expansion on a macrocosmic level. [00:41:55] Speaker B: And I just want to add to that is that you are Source. You are created by that energy. That Source is. So you are Source. Extreme expansion. So Source is like you are the human form of Source learning by you expanding and gathering all these life experiences and all this growth. So it's interesting because so many people sell themselves short by like just thinking they're so powerless when they're completely the opposite. And we are all so powerful and. [00:42:30] Speaker A: Source wants to, to experience itself through you. Because the only way to observe oneself is to have something to reflect on. [00:42:39] Speaker B: Exactly. [00:42:40] Speaker A: And the only way to really, really, truly understand yourself at a macrocosmic level is to become a material person. Because you have sensations and there's no sensations in everything else is mind. So the senses are very important. Anyway, I hope that that isn't too over people's heads. I really wanted to help you understand why each time you choose to die daily and become a different person with a different attitude that hopefully raises your vibe, that that's going to raise the vibe of more than. More than you, you know? [00:43:29] Speaker B: Yes. It's so interesting too because I was thinking of something that like to put it more in a light hearted way. [00:43:39] Speaker A: You mean that wasn't full of joyful at any point? [00:43:44] Speaker B: Yes, you can apply joy to anything. [00:43:46] Speaker A: I know, it was kind of heavy. [00:43:47] Speaker B: Yeah, it was really heavy. But do you guys ever see like how when they put anyone that supposedly has learned so much or so wise, this wise person, you expect them to say like the most wisest things and then normally when you see them in a show and stuff, they're like looking at a flower or they're looking at a bee or they're looking at something so simplistic but yet so perfect. Right. And it was funny because I always thought like, why do they always do that? And now, not that I'm ever claiming like, oh, like oh, I know, whatever. But all I know Is that emotions are very complex. And emotions, especially when we're healing ourselves, we're healing the negative way that we've experienced those emotions, right? But there's also great ways, like after we get done with healing those emotions that we move on to joy, we move on to happiness, we move on to love, to experience everything as a whole. Well, sometimes the purest form of that is nature. Sometimes. Like the other day, just yesterday, I was driving and I had to go sort through letters for my mother because she's out of like the country and she really needed to find this letter. And I'm like, oh, that's gonna be the most bad boring task ever. So I said, source just shows me something that is like, just puts me at joy so that I'm doing this without having any craziness, whatever. So I like go and I reach this stop sign and it turns red and on that stop sign there's a lot of cars. So I'm like, well I'm gonna be waiting here for a little bit. So I turn to the side and I see two butterflies doing a circle. And it was so interesting because they're like literally doing a perfect circle. And then all of a sudden I see one butterfly like take off really fast in a bird appears and it's trying to hunt one of the butterflies. So the, the butterfly lands on this door and the bird charges at it cuz it's thinking, oh, now I have a chance. Well, the butterfly flies a little bit and then starts doing that circle again. The bird gets involved in the circle but the bird doesn't pay as much attention where the butterfly just in a line gets away from it and the bird still does like one loop. And I just thought that was so fascinating because in that time I just observed nature. I've observed just the natural way that things flow. And then even a natural like the bird could have hunted the butterfly. But I know I got the full on escape of the butterfly. The calming of seeing just nature played out. It was such a thing where I'm like, I'm so glad I witnessed this. We think that our lives always have to be about like going through hard, hard parts and everything. But the truth is that's just part of like our learning our lessons. As we evolve more, we get those glimpses of so much more, so much different deepness, so much connectiveness that now I don't question like I don't, I don't question being taken care of. I don't question that there's always something working out for me, because as long as I keep track of my vibration and my emotions, I know that I'm not ever going to bring anything that's not aligned with me. And even when there's things that surface up in me seem a little tougher, my mind, because it has already been going through so sorting out so many lessons, I will never be the same person of how it dealt back in the day, in the past, because I'm no longer that version. So that means now I'm willing to take a breath, take a deep breath to relax into. Really think of myself as coming with a solution as an observer of that situation. Because once you've experienced, experience those situations, you're likely to make better choices. Now, notice I am. I want to emphasize that part. The choice is the thing we all have. And as we progress in our journey, as we go through expansion and renewal, those choices become better choices because we're no longer trying to seek the chaos. Like, we're no longer adding to the fire. We're actually trying to find the peaceful approach to it. [00:48:23] Speaker A: We're also not trying to extinguish the fire. We're neutralizing. [00:48:26] Speaker B: Exactly. But it's just, it's. It's. If you would have told me when I started my spiritual journey that here I would be sitting on a podcast explaining to people how not to have chaotic moment, I would have been like, you're on crack. And here we are with like, we just. [00:48:49] Speaker A: Well, you can't avoid chaotic moments. But once again, you can choose how you're writing your story. [00:48:54] Speaker B: Exactly. [00:48:54] Speaker A: You can, you can rewrite it if you want to, by how you react to it. [00:49:00] Speaker B: Exactly. [00:49:01] Speaker A: That ties into something else that I would like to read from, from my investigations on this topic. It's a. It ties in. It's talking about death and renewal. And the process of dying daily is not just about letting go, but also about integration of the lessons learned from those deaths, like we just talked about. It's about taking the wisdom from each transformation and carrying it forward, knowing that each rebirth brings you closer to your authentic self. So that just ties in pretty much everything we talked about so far, doesn't it? [00:49:38] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:49:40] Speaker A: So expansion happens when we integrate the past. Remember I said we're not extinguishing the fire, we're neutralizing it. Expansion happens when we integrate the past while simultaneously embracing the future. It's a dance between honoring our story, like the inner teenager, for example, releasing outdated narratives, the tower card, like you talked about, and co creating a new one. So it's nothing to Be afraid of. It's something that is natural. And as you go further and further in the journey, it's funny because we live in Mount Vernon, and there's across from the co op, there's an art store, and there's a mural on the wall, and it says, like, when I die or before I die or something like that. It's like. And then you write in with chalk all the things that you want to do. And. And I'm just like, yep, I'm gonna die tomorrow. I'm gonna die the next day. Whenever I see that wall, it's like, yeah. Huh? And I'm gonna die again. And I'm gonna die again. So the word doesn't scare you anymore. It's just all about transformation instead of the final, you know, outcome. [00:50:56] Speaker B: Yes. [00:50:58] Speaker A: So every time I see that mural, I enjoy. [00:51:03] Speaker B: Oh, man. [00:51:04] Speaker A: And then the other thing to remember are the seasons, too. So you were talking about nature. That's one of the things we observe. You know, the things that once seem so full of possibility eventually don't work for it for us. And you can have the analogy of the leaves dropping, and those are going to create the new soil later that's going to come back in spring and bring beautiful vegetation to us. So it's all just part of a natural cycle. And I guess what we were trying to say at the beginning of the podcast is, how are you going to rewrite that story? You know, am I going to nurture that new seed, or am I going to bring in emotions or thoughts that are going to hinder the new growth? [00:51:57] Speaker B: Yeah, I'm trying to remember. Oh, man, this is going to. Okay, hold on. There's this movie I just watched that was just so. Just awesomely made. And it was talking about. It was talking about death and accepting death. And anytime we were no longer fearful of it because we have expanded and learned our lessons from it, once we didn't, no longer had, that was when we could transcend. And until then, he was stuck in limbo. Every single time. After a lifetime finished, and he would be stuck in limbo. And it could be translated in so many different ways. But I just loved how this movie put it. And I rented it on Amazon Prime. It was like an older movie. I think it was from 2006 with Hugh Jackman. I'll search it out. But I really wanted to because it was such a good movie. As far as the introspect of we, there's no such thing as death, because we're always. We're all made out of energy. So energy just recycles and transforms into something, something else. But once he no longer feared death and he no longer was holding on to people in his life to not die, it was when, the moment he transcended. [00:53:25] Speaker A: Well, that could be a metaphor for the small deaths. We're talking about the new perspectives on life that we have while we're still in the body. So we can work on those unhealed wounds. We can learn the forgiveness. So some of the things that could help you with that would be like, Amaral's favorite thing to do, which is journaling. So that helps you get your thoughts out on paper. And there's something, I guess, for a lot of people, and I believe it's actually physiologically proved that when you're actually writing something physically, physically, it has more impact. So you could journal about your feelings about being a teenager and look back and get. Send her some love. You can say, yep, it really. That situation was rough. We got through it. And then, you know, meditation's good. Visualization and affirmations, like we talked about earlier, like how I'm decided that I'm going to be cultivating joy for the next two weeks, even though I talk in such heavy ways. But see, I get joy from talking about big metaphysical things. [00:54:44] Speaker B: I do, too. [00:54:47] Speaker A: You know, And. [00:54:50] Speaker B: I found it. [00:54:51] Speaker A: Okay, good. And I just want to encourage people to just always look for those opportunities to create what you want to create. [00:54:59] Speaker B: Yep. So the movie I was talking about, it's called the Fountain, and Huge Jackman is in it. And as I said, I watched it on Amazon Prime. It was a rental for, like, 3.99. It. This movie was a 2006. It's such a good movie. Just the way my husband fell asleep because he's so used to action movies. I'm like, this is not an action movie. This is like a meaningful movie, but it just really brings out, like, how death is so complex, but sometimes we fear it so much, and yet, like, when we learn what's about and we learn that there's no such things, and we learn that everyone around us is here with a journey of their own. And at any point, they can be. They can leave this and yes, we can grieve for them, but when the moment we want to have that control of it needs to be this way, then that's when we lose track of our, like, what we're really here for. But if you get a chance again, I highly encourage you guys to check it out. It's called the Fountain. [00:56:11] Speaker A: I wouldn't say there's no such thing as death, but I think what is forgotten is that it's an automatic rebirth. And I think that's what you were trying to say, Right? [00:56:19] Speaker B: Exactly. [00:56:20] Speaker A: Okay. [00:56:20] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:56:21] Speaker A: And that can happen. The more you do it here by shifting your perceptions by choice, the more you'll understand it in the bigger picture, too. Okay, well, expansion, spiral galaxies, hug your teddy bear. What else? What else? Okay, man. [00:56:40] Speaker B: We cover a lot in this. [00:56:42] Speaker A: Choose joy if you can. It's all about empowerment and whatever tools you use to empower yourself. But I just wanted to really encourage people to start seeing themselves as capable of being the author who rewrites the story. Yeah. Okay. Wow. Okay. Well, we went all over with that episode. Thank you so much. [00:57:12] Speaker B: Yes. Thank you for tuning in. Don't forget to share. 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