REMEMBERING WHO YOU ARE AT A SOUL LEVEL with KELLY MARTIN

[00:00:00] Speaker A: Welcome to Woowooville, the next stop on your spiritual journey, hosted by three fellow travelers who found a soul connection on the path to higher consciousness. Our goal is to help you navigate the choppy waters you are likely to encounter on the spiritual path by sharing our experiences with you each week. Join us as we spill the tea on what it's like to wake up to your authentic self. Hi, I am Lola Singer, and I am here with two special people, one of whom you are well acquainted with. [00:00:33] Speaker B: My name is Amaral. [00:00:35] Speaker A: And another one that we kind of corralled her. She's a special guest on another episode and we made her stay. Well, she actually agreed to stay and that would be. [00:00:48] Speaker C: Hi, it's me, Kelly Martin. I am back. You're. I'm a psychic. Medium, pet psychic. That's how most people know. And no, they did not corral me. I said, I said yes to it. It's not a voluntold type of thing. [00:01:03] Speaker A: You have free will in all things, including our podcast. So, yes, Kelly is an animal communicator. I met her at some psychic fairs. We're going to go into that in a minute. But the three of us know we're connecting as soul family because, well, we'll have to tell the original story about how we all met. And before I do, we decided that the topic for this particular episode is remembering who you are at a soul level. And I think that's appropriate since we do feel like soul family. So anybody want to get started on this topic? I feel like I can see you want to talk. [00:01:44] Speaker B: No, I was just more thinking. I wrote down the things people don't talk about because a lot of the times when we go into our spiritual awakening, yes, we meet Soul tribe members. And I remember meeting Lola at Mystical Wares and I believe. Kelly, where did I. I'm like trying to remember. [00:02:04] Speaker C: It was that mystical. [00:02:05] Speaker B: We had mystical wears too. [00:02:06] Speaker C: I. I remember it too because. Well, I'll start with Lola, since I met Lola first because I feel like she's kind of on that journey. So as I said, maybe in the previous podcast, I grew up in Ohio and then after my mom passed, my dad had passed away in 2005, my mom passed away in 2014. In 2015. 2015, I made the decision to move out to Washington because my brother and sister in law were out here and I wanted to be closer to family. Funny thing is was I thought it was my birth family, but it was actually to find my soul tribe, my soul family. And it was I and I came out here, I was very depressed, not knowing who I was. I was very. Defeated is the best word to describe myself. I just got out of a really bad relationship. I am the proud black sheep of my family, and I've been on this amazing healing journey. And so a few years after I moved out here, I bought a condo with Renton. I was living down in the Seattle area before I moved up north to Bellingham. And after I bought my condo, I felt this need to find people who were more like me. Growing up, I never felt like I fit in. I was the weird kid among weird kids in school. I had friends, but even then I felt like I didn't quite fit in. Belonged. When I was in high school, when everybody was watching, like, Dawson's Creek and 90210, I was watching Highlander and anime. And back when I was in school, that was a very nerdy, geeky thing to do. And not many people did that. I also loved I'm a big Monty Python Girl. That's also something that wasn't very common. But when I moved out here, I just wanted to find people. So I went to a psychic fair down in Tacoma. I met an amazing lady named Mary Beckman. I'm sure you've mentioned her before. Here. She told me about this psychic showcase thing at ihop. Yes, ihop, the International House of Pancakes, of all places. And I went way down south. [00:04:08] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:04:08] Speaker C: And I went the first time before I ran into Lola. And it was great. It was just like this. This weird thing. It was like it was Lou J's showcase. And you would go and you paid your $5 and you'd go eat your pancakes or whatever you decide to get there. And there'd be a panel of psychics, and you get a little envelope and you write down your birthday and where you're from and maybe a question. And then one of the panels would get it. They also had a talk about a guest speaker and talked about something in the metaphysical spiritual world. But the first time I thought, wow, this is really cool. The second time I went was actually my birthday. My birthday was September 4th, and it was on a Tuesday. And during the weekday, birthdays are hard because everyone's busy doing something. And originally I was going to go to Friday harbor, the San Juans, and go whale watching. But the person who was going to go with me couldn't. I thought, I don't want to do that by myself. That's really sad and depressing to go do something like that by yourself on your birthday. A little thought Bubble popped in my head, like, hey, you could maybe have a spa day and then go to that showcase thing. I thought, wow, that'd be great. So after my spa, I got a massage and a facial and I went down and I sat at this booth and in this front booth there was this group of people sitting there. And I felt this need to want to sit with him and Lola and I kept looking at each other like. [00:05:27] Speaker A: Well, before we get too much into that, let's talk about how unlikely I would ever to be in that place. [00:05:34] Speaker C: Yeah. Now that I know you more and you and the other person that was there, I think is now hilarious. [00:05:40] Speaker A: Yes. Because I think what's going to be helpful for the audience to understand is you could find a soul family member anywhere. [00:05:50] Speaker B: Yes. [00:05:50] Speaker A: It could even be at the job you hate. [00:05:52] Speaker C: Yeah. And I, I'm not. I'm also not an IHOP person. That's not my. I'm also kind of a foodie. And so for me to go to a place like that was just like, not. That's why I'm like, thus. You're like ihop, really? Of all places. [00:06:04] Speaker A: Yeah. But it's not just the ihop. So. So I guess what I would like to share with you guys in the audience is it was. It was so unlikely for me to meet Kelly for a variety of reasons. [00:06:15] Speaker B: So. [00:06:16] Speaker A: So I just want to let you know you might meet a soul family member and recognize that at some kind of heart level anywhere at any time. Because really, I shouldn't have been there. [00:06:30] Speaker C: Yeah. [00:06:31] Speaker A: Okay. So what happened was this particular venue like to feature someone who has psychic skills once a month, I believe right. [00:06:40] Speaker C: Before it was every Tuesday at like 7:00. [00:06:43] Speaker A: Really? That's no wonder. They were so looking so hard for people. [00:06:46] Speaker C: Yeah. [00:06:47] Speaker A: Okay, So I was. This is way down south. It's south for those of you who do not live in Washington State. [00:07:00] Speaker B: Moise, Isn't it? [00:07:01] Speaker C: It was in Federal Way. [00:07:02] Speaker A: Yeah, I mean, it's, it's, it's still King county, but it's pretty darn south. In King county. [00:07:07] Speaker C: We're in Mount Vernon, where you're at here. It's about an hour. [00:07:09] Speaker A: Yeah. But I was living in Snohomish, I think, at the time. So it like two count? No, it was one county away. But it was about as far as you could go to the second county and still be in the county when. [00:07:19] Speaker C: Traffic here is crazy. Oh, anywhere you go it takes an hour. [00:07:22] Speaker A: And it was held during rush at 6:00. So you have to Go through Seattle rush hour traffic, which means if you're coming from where we were coming from, you had to leave like two and a half hours early. So anyway, apparently they were looking for more people in this as guests for this what. What they called the showcase. And our friend Wizard Azanon and I had been duetting Wizard Azanon is a very magical musician, poet, writer, all kinds of things. He's created his own incredibly artful. His own oracle deck. Anyway, he's a magical guy and we would get together and he played hand pan and I would sing in light language. And we sound very good together because it just blends. I happen to be singing Talk about Synchronicity. Apparently I sing in the perfect minor key that that hand pan is in. It's beautiful. [00:08:19] Speaker C: I've heard it. [00:08:20] Speaker A: Talk about synchronicity. We're just supposed to be together. Anyway, so they had heard about us and it's a beautiful sound experience. So we were invited to go down there. And now, keep in mind, Seattle traffic is probably some of the worst in the nation. I'm sure LA is worse, but Seattle's up there. So we get this invitation to go like almost two counties down and we're going, do we really want to do this? And we decided, okay, let's go. So we carpooled down there. And yes, it did take a long, long time. And so I guess the whole point being that I normally would never go to this event. It's just too far away and too stressful to go through the traffic get there. But we were asked especially, and we were asked especially nicely, so we agreed. I guess that's what I wanted to get to is like Synchronicity. There is no way I should have been there. And then Synchronicity for Kelly, her plan had to be altered, so she was there. And I guess that's what I want to impress upon you. Do you want to carry on with the rest? [00:09:26] Speaker C: Yeah, we can kind of. [00:09:27] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:09:27] Speaker C: Well, I remember just you guys sitting there and I just felt very drawn and very focus. I think, wow, those are some really cool people. Like, it was almost like. Like going to a new school and you were the cool kids. That was the best way. And I wanted to sit with you guys. And I know you and I were. Kept looking at each other like, where did we know you? And I think you finally came up to me. [00:09:46] Speaker A: I did. When it was over and you had. [00:09:48] Speaker C: This puzzle look on your face like, have we met? [00:09:51] Speaker A: No, I didn't say that. I know what I said. [00:09:53] Speaker C: Yeah, I can't remember. I can't remember exactly what he said. [00:09:55] Speaker A: I know you. [00:09:56] Speaker C: Oh, yeah? Yeah. That's what you said. [00:09:58] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:09:58] Speaker C: And I was like, I know you, too. But we said like. [00:10:02] Speaker A: And we couldn't figure out how we knew each other because I was way further south than I usually am. [00:10:06] Speaker C: And that was only the second time. I was still brand new to the psychic community, the spiritual. I was just now coming back into my spiritual gifts and understanding who. The only person I really knew there was was Mary. And that was. And so I really didn't know. So we're, like, near sat. And we realized there was a soul connection. Like, we knew each other from. [00:10:26] Speaker A: Right. I knew you. [00:10:27] Speaker C: Yeah. We didn't know. [00:10:28] Speaker A: I didn't know you from a physical level. I knew her immediately from a soul. [00:10:33] Speaker C: Yeah. And. And the cool part, too, is, like, I said every. There was a panel of psychics, and you got a little envelope. And the one who actually ended up getting my envelope was Wizard Asinot, and he only had gotten one envelope. And now I'm hearing. This is. I'm telling. From his perspective. Later on, he was really resistant to get the envelopes. He's not. He's very intuitive, and he's a lot more gifted than he realizes. But he did not want to be a reader and did not want to go. But Lou gave him one. The lady he ran, his name was Louis. She gave him an envelope and just happened to be my envelope. [00:11:03] Speaker A: Yeah. So more synchronous. [00:11:04] Speaker C: So. And he wrote down. And he got. He got it, I think. Wow, that's just really cool. I also heard this is also from his partner's perspective. He said. Yeah, he got back from that. He said there was one really brilliant person there. I really was talking about me. I was like, wow, that was actually really cool because I didn't think I made that big of an impression there, but I did. [00:11:25] Speaker A: Jeffrey and I are soulmates because of the way we remember Lemuria and things like that and working together before. But also Jeff the Wizard Azanon knew Kelly at a soul level, too, obviously, if he was coming back and saying that. So I don't remember. Did I introduce you to Jeff? [00:11:44] Speaker C: No, no. What happened after that? Well, I wait, because I walked up to the table. Yeah. And I talked to him a little bit, but I was. Didn't know what to say. I'd never really explained. Experienced that before. And then we kind of went our merry ways. We went back to our own place. [00:12:01] Speaker A: We drove back to up north where we Belonged. [00:12:03] Speaker C: Yeah. And. And so then I think a few weeks later, I was looking at. I had a Saturday off. I was looking for something to do, and I saw the Blue Moon Psychic Fair. I was like, oh, I should go to that. And I saw that you were going to be there, Lola, because we had fronted on Facebook. And so I went there, and then there was Wizard Jazz in Honor Jeff and you and I just. And the same thing. I. I didn't know how to approach Jeff and talk to him, but I felt there was this connection that was the first time I met Billy. And I know I just started going to the fairs and going to the metaphysical fairs and meeting people and talking to people. And that's when I started realizing that I already knew that I was a pet psychic, could hear animals, and people had told me I was a medium and heard other things, but I wasn't sure because I always use the Muggle terms. I grew up in a Muggle household where this stuff wasn't encouraged, so I didn't know what I could do. And so that really helped me to understand. And I kept meeting people along the way. And then I think after a few months of going, they finally said, when are you going to start doing readings, Kelly? And not just people here, but the guides are saying it's time. So then I said, okay, I'll start doing readings. [00:13:08] Speaker A: Yeah. So she became a regular at the Lou J. [00:13:10] Speaker C: Free Showcase, and I became part of the panel later on, too, which I thought was a real honor, because there are people having gone there for years and never got to be on the panel. But then it was suggested by Mary, who's also, I see, as a mentor of mine, made the suggestion, and it really made me feel good, because growing up in a household, I would like. I was, they said, the black sheep. I was the other kid. I was never told. I was brilliant and amazing. My brother got that Golden Child thing, so I was not used to hearing, you're amazing, you're brilliant. So for me, it was just like, wow, this is so cool. And it kind of made me feel like I finally belonged. And through the last couple years, I've been meeting more and more people. And then I met Amaral, I think, in 2020, 2021, at mystical wares. We were there because Mary was doing a panel, and I remember you sitting in the audience. I kept feeling like there was something there. I kept looking at, you know, I kept feeling that you needed to go to see Jeff or Wizard as Anon for the activations, and then found out you already talked to him, and you start going to the activations. [00:14:09] Speaker B: Well, what's really funny, though, about it is that when I met Kelly, it seemed like everybody in that room or in that place knew that me and Kelly were siblings in another lifetime except for us. And so it was interesting because once I mentioned. I think I remember mentioning specifically to Derek, and I said, oh, yeah. And then I met Kelly, and it's so cute. [00:14:33] Speaker A: Okay, that's Patrick. Derek's the store owner of Mystical Wares. [00:14:35] Speaker B: Yeah, Mystical Wares. And I was like, this is really interesting because I met Kelly, and it seems like I feel like I've known her for so long and all this stuff like, oh, you finally connected with your sister. And I was like, my sister. Keep in mind, I have three brothers. So it was like a sister from another lifetime. And turns out that we did have a lifetime of being elemental. I'm sure we had more than one lifetime. Yeah, we've had so many lifetimes, but we were siblings. And I also ended up meeting Lola, and I also ended up being one of the panel things, Psychic panel. For. [00:15:13] Speaker C: The showcase. [00:15:14] Speaker A: The showcase, too. [00:15:15] Speaker B: But that was, like, later down. [00:15:17] Speaker C: That was just. Actually. That was just last year. And I. I stopped going to the showcase for a while because I. It kind of stopped during the. The 2020, for obvious reasons, I'm sure. But then when it went back up, I moved up to Bellingham, which is really far away. [00:15:34] Speaker A: But who did you end up living near? [00:15:36] Speaker C: Wizard? Asinon, actually. And actually, I moved out there because they moved up there in 2019. And I live in an area called Sudden Valley, which is this gorgeous, magical forest, just like here. And I just felt this need to move up there, so I moved up, and now they're my neighbors. It's great. I see them a couple times a week when they drive by and get their mail. It's such a amazing thing. I never thought I'd be where I was at. [00:15:57] Speaker A: So let's bring this back to the topic of remembering who you are at a soul level. If Kelly had not been there on her birthday, she would not have been encouraged to develop her psychic skills there, number one. Number two, she would not have met Wizard, Oz and Oz, nor myself, because we never went back after that. No offense to the fair. It's just. I mean, it's a hard drive to get there. [00:16:26] Speaker B: It's a long drive to get there. [00:16:28] Speaker A: And so that was definitely. It seems like our souls were playing chess. [00:16:34] Speaker B: Yes. [00:16:35] Speaker A: To line us all up for this. To help encourage you to feel Comfortable there. And then to have. Find us members of your soul family. So that's how you start to remember. Like I said, I walked right up to her and said, I know you. [00:16:48] Speaker C: Well, even I think about now, years later, and I've done a lot of reflecting and looking back over the years, and. And I also, last year, I did a meditation or breathwork thing, and actually I saw myself as a child in the afterworld, playing with Amaral and Wizard Asda and Jeff. And Jeff and I have also been siblings in other lifetimes. I saw a vision where we were, like, we were. I don't know if you were twins or really close, but we were. We were also siblings, so there's that. That connection, too. So. [00:17:15] Speaker A: So how do they know that? They just know that at a heart level. And that could happen for you, too, with someone where you go, I don't know why, but I'm drawn to this person. I really want to talk to them. And then you find out somehow, oh, wow. I think we had past lives together. And then you start either meditating on it or feeling into it, and you go, yeah, I feel like it might have been this region or we might have been like this or that. I think that's pretty amazing with you two. You know that. Yeah. And please elaborate on that, Emeril, if you like. [00:17:45] Speaker C: Well, I remember we were. We were at something and you were picking berries and putting your hand. I was watching you so intently, and I didn't know why. And you came up, hey, remember when you were fairies, you go out and pick berries. I was like, yeah. I was like, and it's such a weird feeling. And we're talking about, remember who you are. Because I was saying, like, when I open up to my gifts and as a medium, you just think, I'm just going to talk to people that passed away. I had no clue. [00:18:08] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:18:09] Speaker C: Then the whole rabbit hole thing, I was going to go down to things I would see and experience. And it's been an amazing journey. [00:18:15] Speaker A: You mean like elementals? [00:18:16] Speaker C: Elementals and galactic beings. Be able to hear trees and crystals and. And you kind of feel like you're going crazy when you first start opening up. [00:18:26] Speaker B: And I get flashes usually, like, it's almost like daydreaming in a way, but I get the flashes of the lifetime. And then I had seen Kelly quite a few times. What's really interesting, it was like, so when we first. When I first met Lola, I was there with Pam, and I believe it was a class that was held at Mystical Wares. I know for sure. We met at Mystical Wares, and then later, like, she felt drawn to us, and I'm sure she can explain it in her own words, but she felt drawn to us because, I mean, it's energy, literally, she said, and it makes so much sense. She said out of the whole room, the only energy that stood out was. [00:19:04] Speaker A: You and Pam, and they weren't even together. [00:19:06] Speaker B: No. [00:19:07] Speaker A: I just saw them both in the way. I like her and I like him. For some reason, I was just in the audience and going, I don't know why, but I couldn't take my eyes off either one of you because it was kind of a circular thing. You guys didn't notice me, but I noticed you. [00:19:20] Speaker B: And then off of that, then we started going to Reiki circles with Sammy. She does aura readings. And when we started going through the Reiki circles, and that's when we really got to know each other more at a. I guess, one on one level. But what was really interesting then Sammy became our Reiki teacher for all of us, minus Kelly, because Kelly was down south. So overall, I think it's so interesting for the tribe to come, like, how it comes together and how it connects. And those of you that are at home, I think what we're trying to say is expect the unexpected is the best way to describe it. [00:20:00] Speaker A: Yeah. Because Kelly felt alone and isolated. You felt alone and isolated. I had just moved up here from Seattle and felt like, what am I doing here in the country? And yet, so I was mildly isolated. I already knew Samantha, so I was fortunate about that. But I guess that's what I want to impress for the people out there. It's like you can feel like you've got no one, and then all of a sudden you have someone. [00:20:24] Speaker C: Yeah. Well, it's amazing that growing up my whole life and my family was challenging. I don't like to talk too negative about them because it was a lesson for me and they were on their own path and they did the best they could. But growing up, I never felt like I fit in, even though I knew I was born into my family. There's video evidence of me being born into this world, and I. But I never really felt like I was truly a part of the family. I would go to family reunions, and I felt like I didn't fit in. Like, I felt left out, and it was just so weird. I was into things and I just felt very odd and different. But then. And I had some friends in college that I could relate to that were more paganish. I Felt connected, but the same thing, I didn't feel like I quite fit in. And so when I the, the decision came to move out to Washington when I met you guys, I finally felt like I fit in. I, I see you guys more than my family and I consider you more than family than my actual. I call now my birth family. And even Auburn and I were talking on the way here that we still love our families. Don't get us wrong, I love my brother, I love my sister in law, my niece and nephew and my parents that have passed on. But I never felt, I don't really feel like they're my family anymore. And just because I, when I'm around them, I can't really be myself and they don't believe in all of this woo woo stuff. And since I've been stepping into more of a spiritual role and having a psychic business and spiritual business, a lot of them have kind of distanced themselves more from me. My aunt used to call me all the time after my mom passed away. But when I started healing and waking up, that kind of got more distance. And because I'm kind of a mirror for her now, she doesn't want to face some of the stuff that she, that she might face. And they kind of liked me being that quiet, submissive, go with the flow, do whatever they want. But now I'm more outspoken. [00:22:17] Speaker A: You weren't happy being that way. [00:22:19] Speaker C: And now I'm being my true authentic self and who I really am. And you guys can't see me. I'm 4 11, so I'm pretty short. But my grandpa, my grandpa, my mom's dad was the only one who really saw me. For me, he calls me a firecracker in spirit and somebody who is, who's kind of. He called as a late bloomer. He knew perfectly well that I'd be fine on my way growing up. But when I met you guys, I finally felt like I was home. And even now being up in Sudden Valley for the first time in my life, I truly feel like I'm 100% home. It's where I belong. [00:22:52] Speaker B: Well, and I think the other thing too that we want to bring up is that a lot of the times, all of us, I know I can relate to this and I'm sure you guys can relate to it. We had to dim our light for so long. And what I mean by dimming our light is we weren't really who we truly were meant to be because we were forced by programming in a society to work a certain way. And for Example, what's funny is I always look at Lola in her approach to certain things. Like, she was very like. Like she kept to herself. She was. She said that when she was a teenager, she was very angry. So she didn't really allow a lot of people to come in. And I'm like, maybe that would have helped me more than what I went through because I was very trusting. Because I thought. I thought if I'm nice, everybody has to be nice to me. If I people please, everybody has to like be kind to me. Which was so the best way I call it. So my first name is Christian. And there's a before and after. There's a part where Christian died in order for Emeril to come in. But Christian came in very wounded, very thinking that people pleasing was the way to do things and very unhealed, which I'm sure that a lot of you guys can relate. But off of, I started my spiritual awakening because I realized once we got trapped with the whole Covid thing, that was a good way for me to put a mirror in front of me. And the question was asked, what do you love about yourself? And at that time I was 100% serious and I said absolutely nothing because I didn't even recognize my own self. I have been growing up to believe of this character that was a made believe character to please others and never myself. So once I started really going into my spiritual awakening, there was a lot of pain because there was a lot of pain I suppressed, not because people put me. I'm not going to victimize myself because pain is a good catalyst for change. And that's what it did to me. It literally like, I have to go through everything of understanding and seeing my way in a different way and no longer judging myself and no longer being my worst critic. Instead I'm like, what if I went a little bit deeper and tried to see every shadow aspect of me that I thought was so wrong and was so awful and really see the other side of it. And what that caused me to do is to look within myself to heal the wounds I needed to heal. Enough of that, I started projecting a new light. And I'm sure that if Lola tells you how she met me, she's probably like, yeah, he definitely died and became a new person or even Kelly. Because we all have. We all go through this process of shedding away who we no longer are to become who we truly are at soul level. And what that means to me as far as being soul level is being at peace with myself at understanding that there's things that happen in my life that weren't there to victimize me, that were there to show me the areas of myself that didn't have any light, that I saw them as being dark. Until I truly understood that it was a lesson for me to learn and to move from. It wasn't a thing where I got stuck. And you know, thing about growing, the thing about growing is that you become a more compassionate and then more. What's the other word? Empathic about everybody else. Because you understand that everybody has their own journey and wherever they understand their wounding too. Yes. And that everybody, they're going to be at their own pace. You cannot. And this is why like we all do it. And I can honestly say I'm, I, I have done it where like we start awakening, we're like, oh, this feels so great. Let's awaken everyone. [00:26:48] Speaker A: Yeah, I think we've all been guilty of that. [00:26:51] Speaker C: There's times like it's so hard too because I mean, like I said, I love my brother and my sister in law and they've seen the journey and part of them likes it, but also part of them are a little intimidated by it. And I would love for them to wake up and be like me too, but they're on their journey, so. [00:27:06] Speaker A: But the family wants to keep you in a little box. Yes. They know you in this box. [00:27:10] Speaker C: Yes. And actually that's something I've been experiencing this last couple years is when they talk to me, they've seen this growth and I think when I first moved here, they had this idea what was going to happen. I was probably going to live in some little apartment in their house and do whatever they want and control me and my built in babysitter. Pretty much. Pretty much. And my brother, I think had this idea of he would take care of me and do things for me and kind of control me. But once he started losing that control, he got really angry. And actually there's one time I remember it was, it was actually when I bought my condo in Renton, it was this townhouse and I saw on this website and I, I even talked to the realtor yet, but I saw and everything said, this is your home, you need this. [00:27:53] Speaker A: That's something at a soul level too. [00:27:55] Speaker C: And it's like, you need to do it, you need. And, and I had been looking for months and months and they just had their first baby. So they're, they're a little preoccupied. When I saw this place and the day that we were going to go, the day that we were going to go meet with the realtor. I saw this place and it was actually, it was within a mile or two of my apartment and it was the same area I was kind of looking for. It was one of those like perfect diamonds in the rough, like, this is what I want. This is exactly what I wanted. And was manifesting in my vision of what I wanted. And so we called and actually the realtor was going to cancel because he was not feeling so great and he didn't want to be around an infant with an illness. But then I said, well, there's this place, can I take a look at it? He says, sure, I'll meet you there. So he was well honest. So we met there and my sister in law came and we saw the place and even the realtor had this energy, like, this is a great place. And then as I knew it was meant for me, that night I went back to my brother's house and he said, this is what I want. And he tried to bully me and say, oh no, this, you don't know what you want. You don't know anything about this place. I said, no, this place. And it's the first time I stood my ground saying, no, this is my place. And even the realtor is kind of hinting, no, this is a great investment. You need to go with this place. And the homeowners that were selling that place actually took it off the market for a week so that the, the people who were renting it could move out. And it gave me enough time to get my pre, pre. What do they call it, pre approval done because I haven't even done that yet. It was now time to get the pre approval in the offer in to get accepted before. It's almost like Sphere says here, we're going to help you out. And the entire time when you're going through the home, the buying process, I'm sure you know, it's a very stressful time. And I kept thinking, is this really for me? And there was one night after work when I was in my apartment, like I said, this place was really close to me. And I, after I got home from work, changed clothes and went to go get dinner and I heard you should drive by their place. And I drove by this place and it just had a rainstorm. There was a rainbow going down where my place was to be. And I broke into tears. I was like, oh my God. It was that synchronicity. And I moved there and that kind of began me taking control. The other time that was the Taking control is was actually right after I met Lola and everybody is. I was in a car accident and my car was totaled and I had to get a new car. It was actually kind of a good thing because the car I had was not doing so well and I kind of wanted to get an SUV and have a nicer car. I had a little sedan, which was okay, but I needed something. I wanted something nicer, but didn't think I was worthy to have a new car. Well, Spirit took care of that and thankfully I wasn't hurt in the accident and it wasn't my fault. So insurance was able to pay for a car. And the old me says, oh, I need my brother to do this for me. I can't do this for myself. But I heard, no, you can do it for yourself. And so I remembered that night going home to get to call him and say, I'm going to do this on my own. I was scared out of my wits because I'm like, okay, this is not going to go well. But I called and he was not happy. He says, oh, I. And he got very upset. The fact that I wanted to do this by myself and it wasn't so much doing by myself is I was taking my control back and. And I said, this is new. So I did. And almost five years later, I have a great car. I love the car I have. And I wasn't planning on getting a brand new car, but it just happened to be that way. And I was able to get a really great deal on the car. And it was actually brand spanking new. It still had the factory smell from Japan. I got a Subaru Forester and it had that new car smell. And I wasn't planning on getting it, but it worked out beautifully and I'm so grateful, but it gave me that empowerment to do it on my own. And then after living in this place for three years, I saw Sudden Valley and said, I want to move here. And the same thing, I found the place I'm at now. I found it. And I heard they say, this is your place, you need to go for it. And I did it. And I didn't even tell my brother that I was doing this until I actually put in the offer and got accepted and was going to do it. And I did it all by myself. I did not ask him for help once. And it was the most empowering thing I'd ever done for myself. And since I've been doing that more things for myself now, they lost control. They don't know what to do. And even my aunt, uncle, they don't know how to handle. And sometimes they will try to say things to push my buttons, but I don't react the same way I do. And, and they'll say, oh, don't get upset, don't get like, yeah, it's fine, whatever. I mean. And most of the time I go there for holidays and stuff. They live down in Tacoma. I bite my tongue and just let them think what they want because I know part of them isn't ready to handle the real me. So I give them in steps because I think they might get scared. [00:32:36] Speaker A: So how would you say these experiences helped you understand and remember who you are at a soul level? [00:32:42] Speaker C: I say it helped me to. I feel like this lifetime is about me getting my voice back and understanding not to be afraid that we're all very gifted people and it's okay to stand in your truth in who you are. Because I also find it inspires other people be on this podcast and sharing and I feel like it's helped me also appreciate what I have more and what I'm doing. Because if I had got it from the bat, I probably would not be as grateful as I am now. [00:33:09] Speaker A: And well, stepping into your soul level is stepping into your son. Right. SOL S O U L so you get more empowered as a result because you're connected. Your form, your material form is connecting to the spiritual spirit. [00:33:28] Speaker C: Yeah. If I hadn't gone through all of that, I never would have had the guts to start my own business. Elementales Intuitive Animal Services. And that's actually really helped push me forward in doing the things I'm doing. And even looking back, I realized I was always a natural leader. I was always more outspoken. I wasn't allowed to speak my truth because I've had meditations and healings where I've gone back to that time in my life and I would say things I guess a 4 year old shouldn't say, things that were actually really smart and made a lot of sense. But my parents didn't want to hear it from a little kid, which I. [00:34:01] Speaker A: Guess because there was an advanced soldier. [00:34:05] Speaker C: And I also saw that. I mean, I am a psychic medium. I can hear spirits and see things. And I forgot about this part. But when I was a kid, I would see things that no one else could and I would understand things no one else could. And my mom saw that and she kind of got intimidated because she grew up in a more religious, conservative background. There were this stuff doesn't exist or there might be something bad behind it so. And I was definitely the scapegoat for a lot of things. So they kind of like Kristen. They liked me being in that bubble. But I definitely feel like it's helping me now. And looking back, and I have no anger against my parents anymore. And a lot of that has been released. And even my brother, I love them very much and I see what they're doing. I also know my brother has potential to wake up. And I just see I'm just kind of being the example. I don't go in and tell them how they should be. I just kind of practice what I preach and do my own thing. And I might not. They might not wake up and grow, but my little niece and nephew, they're seeing what a healed adult looks like and someone who's being their true selves. So when they get older, it'll. It'll be cool to see where it inspires them and how they should be. [00:35:13] Speaker B: Well, the thing you have to understand too is that as you heal, you're also healing your ancestry line seven lines before and seven lines ahead of you. [00:35:21] Speaker A: So that's science, that's epigenetics. [00:35:23] Speaker C: Yeah. [00:35:24] Speaker B: And so here's a few things that I wanted to mention too, is like you were saying, because I want everybody to kind of know and understand this part. So even though you're challenging your ability to stand on your two feet, on your power and say, I want to make these life choices, how spirit comes in and helps you is those transitions will be ease and flowy. When something's not meant for you, it will be blocked and you won't go through it. Yes, the first part scary because you ultimately have to make the decision, I'm going to move to this place or I'm going to change from this place. But once you actually set the intention, once you say, this is what I want to do, the rest spirit will take care of you because it'll make it a kind of a smooth transition. And one of the things that we've said before, but we really want to mention because we want you to understand the reality aspect of as you stand in your power, there's also a trade back that's going to happen, and that is the shedding away of anything or anyone that is no longer aligned with that sole purpose of yours. So when you get to your soul level, you're saying you're going to be growing into your essence of who you truly are. Well, like Lola said, a lot of these people, they're comfortable with seeing you how they've always seen you and they want to keep you at that level because anything else, they just, they cannot even visually see you in going into really deeper introspect, this is really, like, fascinating because it's almost. This is the way I mentioned, this is my story. You don't have to take your words. And I put a little bit of comedy to it and twist it because, of course, I'm a Scorpio. I have to. I said, it's almost like you were sitting in spiritual form and you were drunk in a bar, and then someone came to you and said, hey, I have this great contract. Would you sign up in, like, this, like, ancestry line? That is so messed up. There's this going on, and there's this going on. And here you are, you're going to come in and you're going to rescue them and you're going to heal them, and you're going to be, like, the change that, like, none of them could do. And then you're so drunk, you're like, sign me up. [00:37:32] Speaker A: And you think you can be an armchair quarterback. [00:37:34] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:37:35] Speaker C: And I always want to say, too, like, when people see me, if they first met me and they're still very broken, sometimes I'll feel that kind of jealousy or anger, like, why is she so bright? And I want to say, like, it's not been an easy journey. It's been not fairly easy. And I always. When I do readings for people, I do mostly pet readings, but sometimes it doesn't become about the person. And it's usually people who are beginning to wake up because I can explain, explain things better, and I share my own personal experiences because I want to tell people waking up is a wonderful, beautiful thing. I'm so glad I did it. I'm so grateful for it. But it is a hard road. And I still, sometimes last week I had a big kind of setback, or I kind of broke down and cried and got emotional. I was healing my inner teenager because she was the most damaged. And I was going back to really, because she was kind of what was holding me back for a lot of things. And she was so, so damaged. And I had just a big moment of healing that. But now I feel so much better. But I also know how to deal with those emotions better. [00:38:31] Speaker A: I want to go back to what Namarril said about signing up for this drunken contract, because I think it's a good analogy. [00:38:38] Speaker C: I've used that before, actually. [00:38:41] Speaker A: If you think about. And more and more, we're starting to realize we are living in a simulation, in a Holographic. So if this is. Think of it as a video game, okay, we come in, we set ourselves up with certain zodiac signs, certain family, like Amarl was saying that create challenges for us, for us to overcome, get more balanced. Synchronicities will come in. Like Kelly talked about. Difficulties will come in where we. Are we going to keep going? Are we going to give up on this video game? What is the end game? It's the title of our episode today. Remember, remembering who you are at a soul level is the entire reason why you came down here as a master player and said, don't give me the easy stuff. Give me the challenges. Because I want to play at a master's level, wipe out my memory. So I have to remember my personal power and I have to remember lives where I did this and that, and I have to remember the people who were on my team. Like, I recognize Kelly this. Oh, I'm getting chills when I say it. [00:39:50] Speaker C: I'm right. [00:39:50] Speaker A: I'm right on target with this, aren't I? This is what this episode is about, guys. This is for you to learn from through our experiences that you can start winning this game. [00:40:04] Speaker C: Yeah. And also kind of. I was going to say too one thing, actually, when you said it made me think of this, I mentioned the previous podcast. I was a big horse person, a big equestrian. And sometimes my horse riding instructor would say, sometimes you have to. When you move forward, you have to go back and look at those little bits before you can move forward. But also some. The toughest lessons are the best lessons. And it made me think of, like when I was a kid and took riding lessons, I always liked riding the really stubborn horses, the ones that. Not the. What they call the push button horses that do whatever you want whenever you ask the horses that really make you work and to get what you want. And I always liked those horses because it made me a better rider, a better person. And I was. So when I got to ride those push button horses, it was so much easier. And it kind of me and I realized those horses were kind of teaching that lesson to make you be forward and say, keep going and keep moving. And now actually, even now I'm talking, as I'm looking back, I see why those horses were so important to me now because I needed that. That stubborn, tough lesson to remind me to keep going. [00:41:08] Speaker A: The best teachers never spell anything out. [00:41:10] Speaker C: For you and those horses. And then they really helped me understand of who I am. And even working with, as I said, working with animals have been great. That's How I really got through the worst times of my life. And my animal friends and family, my pets, my dog and two cats, and the horses I worked with really helped me get through in it. Now I've been doing a lot of looking back and realizing all those animals came in, even the ones that weren't actually mine. The horses I worked with, I've never actually owned horse of my own, but I took care of about 10 to 12 horses. Clean, stalls, bed. They were my horses. And each one gave me this amazing unconditional love. And each one showed me that I am a beautiful person and I do have leadership abilities and I can take charge. And they're more than. More than happy to follow me. [00:41:56] Speaker A: Yeah. But, you know, I even want to take this to a more mundane level, because remembering you are at a soul level, if we look at it as a game that you can win, even that deadbeat guy you divorced three years ago was part of your soul journey and growth and empowerment. So, I mean, if you're gonna play a video game, you might as well throw a lot of things in to throw you off. So I think even the smallest thing that might seem like it's no big deal can actually be part of your remembering who you are at a soul level. It can be bigger, it can be small. [00:42:38] Speaker C: Well, even then, it makes me think of this meme I saw once on Facebook. Was said red pill or blue pill. One you get a hard money. One you get to go back to your past and remember things, but learn who you are, change things. And I realized as much as I look back, oh, I would have done this and not differently. I'm grateful I went through those steps to get where I'm at now because I needed those steps. I don't know if I would go back and change. [00:43:04] Speaker B: Well, yeah, because you wouldn't learn your lessons. You wouldn't be who you are. [00:43:07] Speaker C: And even the last serious relationship. He was awful. But it was a lesson for me to learn, and I appreciate those lessons, and I'm glad I went through those lessons. And even the parents that I decided to be with, because I joke around the same thing about Soul Contract. I signed up for this. Why would it. Why on earth would I decide to come, no pun intended, Come here on earth and experience all these things? I must have been crazy. But looking back, I'm actually grateful I went through it. I'm actually very grateful for the bad experiences I went through because it makes me appreciate life more. It makes me understand more. And then when I do the readings for People, I can relate to them more versus someone who's never been through it. So I'm very, very grateful for the toughest times in my life. [00:43:50] Speaker A: Yeah, I'm kind of glad that my psychic skills were kind of squashed at an early age, in all honesty, because I had to learn from scratch myself that I'm more powerful than I realized I was. [00:44:03] Speaker C: And same here this past year, Emerald too. This past year was about me taking back my leadership, my matriarch thing. And my gifts were also suppressed. And a lot of us come in with gifts, but we close them off for whatever reason, social programming or empathic abilities or. I could hear people's thoughts and I would would hear my mother say, I love you, but I would hear her thoughts and they were not nice. So that's where I also shut down my gifts. And also I saw this once during a meditation. Sometimes your guides will come in and kind of relieve some of those emotions when you're a child. Because that way as children, you're not so overwhelmed with those emotions. [00:44:42] Speaker B: I want to bring something up that I would like spirit just nudging me and point like. So the first part about this specific episode is remembering who we are. The reason why it's so important about those. It's not like you're becoming all of a sudden something that you never were. It's just you're remembering who you are. And the reason why we say remembering who you are is because when you're born into this life, some had it before. Meaning. My mom was 16, she got pregnant. She was in a small town. She wasn't per se married yet. So then my dad was 18, comes from a family that like, was just so chaotic. So at womb level, the programming already started because I kept hearing my mom feeling like she was ashamed, feeling like she was unworthy. My dad, I could feel him like, how am I ever supposed to step up to this? Like, how can I move forward? All these things but normal, even at a normal pace. For example, a kid growing up, by the time you hit 2 to 3, that's when your main programming begins. So where I'm trying to get to is the fact that as you start finding out who your troll true soul self is, trying to find that out is removing everything you're not. And that's when the raw part really comes in because you're going to find that there's going to be so much to you that was never yours, but you took it on is like, this is who I am. Because that was your identity at that small of an age, you're looking up to your parents, you're looking up to your families as they know everything. They're here to guide me. I mean, why would you think any otherwise? And they can only provide as much as they themselves have healed. So if they're wounded, those wounds are going to be passed down and that's the way they're going to raise you. So I guess the point that I'm trying to get to is that sometimes it all starts with you and having compassion, understanding that it was in your. Like a lot of the time, a lot of people are still stuck in trying to figure out that it wasn't your fault. And the fact that you have to forgive yourself so that you can forgive others. Forgive yourself for holding that resentment, forgive yourself for holding that anger. Forgive yourself for thinking you needed to be anything other than yourself. Whether people took you at that time 100% for who you are, that's entire. That's their perspective of you. And that has nothing to do with you. We came here to break the mold of what was expected of us. If we came here to just be just functioning program like everybody else, we wouldn't be talking about this now. We are the change we want to see. Because everything starts within. When you connect to your soul level, that means that you're connecting to your essence through understanding who you truly are and letting go of anything you're not. And now that's easily said. It's a lot tougher done. But those of you that are listening, the point that I'm trying to get to is really embody that compassion, that love towards yourself. So as you go through the shedding of who you're not, you can still be there for yourself. The, the advantage is at this time when you're. What you're shedding away is you're. It's going permanently out and it's not coming back. There can be different layers of it, but at the same time, you're going to get to the point which your soul just wants peace. It wants to have a purpose and it wants to feel connected in a line. [00:48:53] Speaker C: Yeah, I think that's perfect. So when you start healing, you kind of do look back and you kind of be like, man, I was so stupid. Why did. Why was that relationship like, I knew he was bad. I knew is awful. You kind of get angry at yourself. Like, why would I do that to myself? But then I do a lot of inner childhood meditations where I actually go back to that energy. I hug myself. Hey, honey, it's okay. You didn't know anybody. You were just going with what you're used to, what you were programmed. It's okay. Stop blaming yourself. It is not your fault. And growing up, I was always blamed for things. Like, when I was more outspoken, I would say things, and my brother could say whatever he wanted and not get in trouble. If I said something, chaos would go through and I'd be blamed for ruining holidays and special occasions. So I always felt it's always my fault. [00:49:38] Speaker A: Well, I got socially labeled, too, because I'm a twin. Yeah, it was. Lila's the nice girl. My name used to be Lisa. It's now Lola. Lisa's the bad girl. And I even had that happen one time. My brother was having a birthday party. He was five, younger than me, and he introduced me to his friends, and he goes, this is my nice sister Lila and my mean sister Lisa. [00:50:03] Speaker C: Well, it reminds me of, too. Like, I'd be at Vince with my mom, and she would. I'll never forget that she'd introduce my brother to people, but not me. I'd be standing right next to her. [00:50:15] Speaker A: Oh, my gosh. [00:50:16] Speaker C: And actually, it was towards the end, actually, this was actually at my grandpa's funeral. And the timing probably wasn't the best, but I was still kind of irritated. So she. The people who took care of the funeral directors, it was the same family, same company that we used. And my brother had flown in from Seattle. This is when he was in Ohio. And my mom went up to him and was like, this is my son Brad from Seattle. And I was standing right next to my mother, waiting to be introduced. Then nothing. Just like. And she sat down as if I didn't even exist. And I remember I got really upset, and I was like, mom, you'd never. And you never asked. Introduced me. And then she was like, oh, how dare you do this at your grandfather's funeral? And I was just like, wow. But then I'm looking back, I was like, I wasn't trying to call her out, but I was kind of hurt. And she always turned it around on me as being the bad person. Like, how dare you say something like that? And I wasn't trying to cause any hurt or upset. I was just speaking my truth. And so I was always. I always felt like I wasn't good enough or smart enough. And I'm finally realizing I am good enough. I am smart enough. And it's not an ego thing or look at me type of thing. I'm finally confident even saying I'm a very Gifted psychic medium. A very gifted pet psychic. I am great at what I do. And I'm not saying I'm better than everybody. I'm saying I am good at what I do. And you are listening. Can be that, too. You all have the potential to be there, and it's okay. And sometimes I feel like spirit will show you how much you've grown. About three years ago, I went back to Ohio to visit my high school friend. And it was great. It was lovely. But I had grown so much. I didn't realize it until I saw them. They were still kind of stuck in the past and stuck where they were at and not moving forward. I went to the place where I worked, and it was a lovely place, but it was so different. I kind of saw my life how it would have been if I hadn't moved out to Washington. [00:52:18] Speaker A: Can I just summarize on behalf of both of you? [00:52:21] Speaker C: Yeah. [00:52:22] Speaker A: I think what you're both trying to say is part of remembering who you are is recognizing who you are. [00:52:27] Speaker C: Not exactly that. Exactly what we're saying. And be proud of who you really are. And actually, we're saying this, and I know, Lily, you're not a big Disney person, but I still think of Lion King. It's my favorite movie as a kid. And I just think of the scene where Simba is the very. In the movie and he's walking up the ramp and like, remember who you are. And you think about the movie I actually watched. I rewatched it last. Last year. The original cartoon, not the live action, the one that came out in the 90s. And he was blamed for things that were not his fault, but he believed it as a child. He blamed himself for his dad's death, which is actually something I. I was kind of blamed for as a kid. And I realized it's not my fault. So I. I use that. That symbol a lot of myself. Kind of going up pride rock and screaming out, this is who I am. Because to me, that's what it was in that movie. At the end, he's like, remember who you are. So. [00:53:22] Speaker A: Oh, Amerl just showed us as we're recording 3:33. So I was about to say so to kind of summarize some of the things we talked about to help you remember. Soul Level one is Synchronicities. I was about to say that when he showed me 333. [00:53:36] Speaker C: It's right after I said that too. [00:53:38] Speaker A: I was like, Synchronicities. Like you finding the house and knowing it was the right place for you. Synchronicities like you and I meeting and feeling like we knew each other in a place where I normally would never have been. Me recognizing you guys, recognizing each other from soul family lives. And then we talked about as well, really starting to feel that empowerment and taking the labels off and really taking a good hard look at who. Yes, you might see me this way, but I am not that way. And that is why a lot of people change their names on the spiritual journey. As a matter of fact, my tarot teacher Eli says that's very, very normal. You get to a certain point and it's time for you to change your name. [00:54:23] Speaker C: Actually, I'm kind of right at that point. [00:54:25] Speaker A: Yeah, I've heard my name very natural. [00:54:27] Speaker C: I've heard my. Actually, even today I went to this networking breakfast, the Spiritual Network, and I feel like my soul name is Lyra or Lyra, and actually said that to somebody out loud for the first time. My name is Lyra. [00:54:38] Speaker A: Well, I can tell you from experience I had, I changed my name to Lola because a lot of people don't know this. Lola stands for language of light activation Singer, because I sing in light. So Lola Singer light. Anyway, I thought it was a clever play on words, but a lot of people started calling me Lola. So I said, okay, I've legally changed it. A few years ago, it costs a little over $300 to change your name. Just enough to hurt. So you're going to be serious about changing your name. So when someone commits to that, they have changed their name for a reason. And for a lot of us on the spiritual journey, it's a soul level reason. I am not Lisa anymore. I am Lola. [00:55:17] Speaker C: And I'm actually, when I said that, I realized I'm about to right now I'm Kelly, but Lyra is my name. That's what I feel like who I should be. [00:55:25] Speaker A: Emeril's in the midst of changing this too. [00:55:27] Speaker C: I'm not going through the legal part yet, but. And even I'm trying to get back to my original essence. I have my hair dyed bluish black color now, but now I want to get back to my more natural color because I'm ready to be my true self and not hide behind something. [00:55:42] Speaker A: So you might one day I have an inspiration like that. I'm, you know, I'm going to do this, I'm going to do that. That's something you never would have done before. And it's because your soul speaking to. [00:55:52] Speaker C: You and it is still a little scary. Even me saying, my name is Leroy Right now, out of the blue, in front of everyone. This is the first time I mentioned to you guys this is how I feel. My name. It is a little scary. And I'm still like, this is weird. But I'm trusting the process. [00:56:06] Speaker A: Okay. Is there anything I missed as far as what we summarized and talked about, as far as starting to remember who you are to soul level? [00:56:13] Speaker B: Shedding. Because it's important to understand the shedding as you, like, go into. [00:56:17] Speaker A: Oh. Recognizing when it isn't you. And then shedding. Yes, absolutely. I guess I inferred that. [00:56:22] Speaker B: Including people, too, because people. [00:56:25] Speaker C: And if people start to kind of go away in your life, it's okay. It's not bad. It's just. [00:56:30] Speaker B: They're just opening up empty room for people that are worth being in your life. [00:56:34] Speaker C: Yeah. And the people and more amazing people. And if you haven't found your soul family yet, I promise you, they are on their way. And listen to the little inklings. Even if it's going to someplace like ihop. [00:56:45] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:56:45] Speaker C: Or some. Or all of a sudden you feel the need to go to this bookstore, go to this event. Even something you normally would never do, go do it. Because you never know. Or if you're in the grocery store and you see somebody who you're like, oh, I like that earring. Say, oh, I love your earrings. Start a conversation, because you never know where it might lead. [00:57:05] Speaker A: Yeah. Well, who knew we were going to be friends? [00:57:08] Speaker C: I was thinking today, the other day, too, I was like, here's funny how I met you guys. And now here I am in your house doing this podcast and doing all these things. And the things I'm doing now, I actually look back. I actually went back and did a meditation, Went back to my teenage self. Hey, guess what, Kelly? When you get older, you're going to live in a magic forest. You're going to have a really cool job. You have all these cool things that you get to do and just keep going. Don't give up. [00:57:36] Speaker A: And she does live in a magical forest. [00:57:37] Speaker C: I do. [00:57:38] Speaker A: Oh. She also has a business. It's called Elementales. E L E M E N T A I L S. You can find her on Facebook under that name if you want to learn more about her. Yep. [00:57:50] Speaker C: I do pets, mostly do pet psychic work and Reiki work. And I do sessions over zoom, so you do not have to be in person. [00:57:57] Speaker A: Okay. And on that note, thank you for tuning in. Thank you. [00:58:01] Speaker B: Make sure you share with others. [00:58:02] Speaker A: Yeah. Tell your friends about us. [00:58:04] Speaker C: Thank you for having me. Again. [00:58:05] Speaker A: Thank you, Kelly. Bye.